I finally got to face myself. Reality check!
Being lazy when it comes to yourself can and will turn against you in so many ways,and you know it's soooo wrong! How do you know it's wrong?It simply doesn't make you feel good. In general. Period. It can cause a depression,it will cause a self esteem issues and it can make you really bitter and unhappy. Why again ? Because it means you don't show yourself enough of love and care! Simple and short!
It's not about trying to look like somebody else,it's about using your own potentials to create and build the best version of you. Spirituality,Mentally,Intellectually,and yes - Physically! And I got to face the fact that taking care of your body doesn't make you a superficial barbie doll (that was one of excuses right) and it gives you much much more than good looks "only" - it's a source of physical strength,good health,and very very importantly : it's the way to build up your self confidence!
The fact you took your life in your hands,the fact you are putting an effort into bettering yourself makes you feel strong,proud,and helps you create a way better image of yourself. And guess what - the way you see yourself is exactly the way others will see you!
I finally understood that it doesn't take a rocket science or magic stick to change your life ( I was so sure it was such a mission impossible) and work towards the best possible version of you - I only changed the way I eat (nothing rigorous ,just a bit of discipline,I still got to enjoy food) , how I eat (from eating once a day I started eating every 3 hours small portions),I cut out all the sodas and juices and replaced it with water only (minimum 3l of water per day),I started working out (home workout,I never went to a gym!).
But the most important change I made was switching my state of mind from "I wish" to "Im so going to get it". I stopped acting like what I want for myself is hardly reachable,available there,far away for somebody else only.
Body of my dreams,that flat belly,hot legs-In my mind,I already owned it!
That's how I was so sure Im never going to go backwards. No more "next Mondays". No more starting and stopping. It wasn't a diet. It was a new chapter of my life. A new lifestyle of mine. And, It was a done deal.